Humanity
Finding Her
“Where are you going?!”, I scream in agony. I don't understand where she could possibly be going at this moment; it is very dark. I’ve told her many times that if she dares walk out that door there is no turning back, but this time she didn’t hear my cries or contemplate the fear in my voice. She chose to flee; I was so used to her freezing, fighting, or fawning. She chose that wretched path of gloom, shadows, ghosts, and cold greetings. I promised that I would not follow her down that path; I just won’t do it; I know better! I was taught that roads diverge and the one less traveled dries up like a raisin. Dried up roads turn to dust and fill your lungs with false hope. There is no bliss in watering old roots. Remaining in ignorance is what I’m supposed to do; I must obey the ways of my people. I won’t even look in that direction because there can’t possibly be any hope in places that no one has ever conquered. Sure, I felt the déjà vu; my elders have been here before too, but why break tradition?
By Brenda K Russell-Diaz4 years ago in Confessions
Homeless
Through the process of creating the life I want by becoming who I have envisioned, believed, & aspired to be. I have seen the days that I wouldn’t have thought to be memories. Looking back from times, closer to then, than now I blamed myself for every circumstance. I made the choice to pursue my own path.
By AvRage Everything 4 years ago in Confessions
Being a True Account of a Return to My Hometown during the 2021 Winter Holidays
If there are any future generations left out there that want to hear this, I think it should be put on record as one of the strangest and weirdest moments of the year for me. I decided to return to my hometown after avoiding the temptation of returning to see my family over the holidays last year. Covid-19 played its role, but I was also concerned about the trip itself. I have become spoiled using air travel, even if it happened to be sporadic and often overpriced (this year’s rates were ridiculous). But, there were two other options: bus (made worse by the decision to move the station to an even more depressing area of the city) and train (a viable option with my membership in the company’s rewards program and the fact that the building where we catch the train is quite beautiful). My decision was made for me, but I did not anticipate other issues. They say that the trip is often more exciting than the arrival itself. Is this true, based on what I experienced over a very long Tuesday? Let me fill in the details and you can decide for yourself:
By Kendall Defoe 4 years ago in Confessions
The Journey outside the mind
Desire! It is the force that drives us forward. The desire to eat gives us the drive to work. The desire for companionship gives us the drive to go out and do things. The desire for love can drive a person to almost anything. We can have all the things we desire if only we knew for a fact that we deserve to have everything we desire. Take me for example, I lived my life believing I was insignificant to a certain degree. You’re thought from a young age to suppress your emotions. You cry without being physically injured and you are being too sensitive. This takes away from the very real pain you are feeling and the natural urge to feel your feelings gets reduced overtime. It’s conditioning and it’s learned from those who came before them and they transfer the subtle aggression to you and you to those who come after you. An endless cycle of learned behavior. They wear you down until you our a cog in society’s wheel to propel the narrative forward. These things happen to everyone whether or not they have woken up or not, but the cycle can be broken. Someone can change their entire life by unlearning the behaviors force into us over the years. Let me tell you how I did it.
By Tori Adejinle4 years ago in Confessions
Hiding Asperger's Syndrome
Everyone has something they hide from the world. It may be a good idea to build a life on top of hiding something that makes you feel incomplete from the world around you. That hasn't been the easiest task for someone like myself. Growing up I did have my deal of hardships; being bulled for my height to developing trust issues when it came down to my first real relationship. I always tried to find some sort of blame because I was indeed hiding the truth of what may cause my life to be one heck of a rollercoaster. That secret was my mild case of Asperger's Syndrome. Asperger's is a form of autism. Some qualities may include having a very high intellectual state but not being so intuned with emotions. This was a life that I was trying to hide from the world and later on from myself.
By Mikyah Henderson4 years ago in Confessions
Turning The Page.
I had dreams of setting the tone with a soft air of surrender and peace, but that doesn't feel authentic to where I am right now. My higher self wants to be in that calm space, but I'm hanging on by a tiny mouse hair, and the horses are running wild.
By Malliha Ahmad4 years ago in Confessions
Catharsis
Catharsis. The process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed feelings. Many things can cause catharsis in one's life, music, art, skydiving. Catharsis is the closest humanity can get to scraping our brain clean and free of ‘ropes of nerve and bone’ that can cause us to feel suffocated. As if you’re loading a Sims game, and the refreshing character screen pops up, allowing you to synthesise any persona you wish, and drop them in a new world. A blank canvas. They become ready to do whatever you command them to, and you get a rush of adrenaline when you realise you are playing the role of God. Before I get off track here, catharsis is an important part of human living and prevents us from becoming mind-numbing zombies.
By Gaia Fahed4 years ago in Confessions
